So in my whole journey with God, I've realized that the one thing I really want is wisdom. Since God's word tells us to ask for it and it will be given to us I've done just that.
Today it got put to the test with a co-worker. When said person did something that from my perspective was disrespectful I was really bothered by it however I chose not to make a mountain out of a molehill. Although I really wanted to call my husband and vent, "Can you believe this? Should I be upset? What should I do?" something in my heart told me not to do that. It was God telling me to trust in Him because he would give me the wisdom to handle the situation on my own. And sure enough he did simply because I chose not to get upset and say something with anger that I would later on regret, I waited instead.
This made me realize how many times my own past experiences and my perception led me to believe things that are not as such. When I got over how someone had done something wrong to me (selfishness and pride) I was able to focus on the real issue. What drove this person to react that way? It made me realize not how much I needed her but how much she needed Christ in me which she never would've seen if I would've acted on my own.
I know there is still so much I've got to learn but in the meantime I will confess that I am enjoying this journey with God. It's not always easy and it's been very painful (emotionally) but I am grateful that the Lord is holding my hand and walking me through this. Do the ends justify the means? Absolutely!
How much better to get wisdom than gold, to choose understanding rather than silver!