Do you sometimes find yourself questioning God, asking him, "God, why are you allowing this to happen? Why aren't you changing the circumstances?" I think this is where I stand right now. I know without a shadow of a doubt that He is in control and works all things out for the good of those who love him and have be called according to His purposes (Romans 8:28) yet it's not enough to know those things. I need more.
After applying or at least attempting to apply every bible verse I know to my life right now I find that it's still not enough. My emotions seem to have gotten the best of me and I am overcome with questions. My heart cries out, "Why, God?"
My mind knows that God is sovereign and has a greater purpose than I can even fathom at this very moment, however my heart fails to connect with my mind and is deeply saddened.
Lord, I pray that you would give me strength, wisdom and discernment. Strength to depend on you with all my heart, soul and mind, wisdom to think as Jesus did and discernment to see the not so obvious.
In Jesus' Name,
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.