I usually give a recap of my hubby's sermon on Mondays but this week I want to share how his message, "What's In It for Me?" spoke to me.
Lucas said one thing that has not left my mind. Basically in life we are going to experience frustration and pain. Being a Christian does not make us exempt from disappointments and hardships however it is through difficulties that our relationship with Him grows radically. As we seek Him fervently to answer our prayers and guide us, we learn more about His character and are able to develop one that resembles His more.
If I look back at my life, I see many times that I have felt that I was going through something that was more than I could handle. One way has been our inability to become parents. We have been desiring to have our own children for quite some time now and for reasons that I am beginning to understand, God has asked us to wait. Something that seemed unfair, unreasonable and cruel . Why would God not grant me the one desire that my husband and I have? Why won't He allow us to be parents when we have so much to offer, when our entire lives are devoted to His service?
Well, I don't have all the answers but I do know that for whatever reason, God has said "not now." And I have gradually come to accept that. I know that one day, God will allow us to be parents however He deems is fitting for us (biological children or adoption or even foster care). However, I do trust that He has the BEST for us. And His best is not necessarily my idea of what is best.
I can say that through this journey God has strengthened my relationship with Him, has molded my character into that of a women who resembles Christ more and loves Him genuinely, has enabled me to heal some past wounds, has strengthened our marriage and has given us more freedom to serve Him in the church.
When I weigh the list of what God has been able to show me through this waiting period against what I feel I may have missed out on, it becomes more apparent that it has definitely been worth it. I am convinced that when He does decide to bless us with a child, there is no doubt that our baby will be loved so much more because we earnestly prayed and waited for him.
It is very likely that what you have or are experiencing is completely different from what I described. Perhaps you have been praying and waiting for a husband, or you want to go to college and due to your legal status are unable to attend school so your educational plans are on hold. Maybe you are praying for an unsaved husband. I don't know where you are at but I can assure you that whenever God asks you to wait, He wants to draw you closer to Him and He will carry you through the hardships.
We don't have to wait until God gives us what we think we want, need, or deserve to thank Him. We can do it right now. We can praise Him in the midst of the difficulty, thanking Him for developing our faith and being confident that His will is the best for us.